I lost my full time job at the end of August. Since then I have been re-evaluating what I want to do in life. I knew when I started that job I didn't want to retire from it. It was a filler to help me get through hard times. I learned from it. But since then I have been trying to decide what my calling in this life is so I have been thinking about resolutions and goals for the next year since then and have really come up with a theme instead of a list.
The theme is - Intentional.
There are times I waste entire days doing nothing but rewatching episodes on tv. Or went to bed not feeling like I accomplished anything. There were days I went to work and didn't feel like I had been useful.
This year I want to change that. I want to live my life with intention and purpose. I have been thinking of areas that need more intention and I will share just a few of them.
Health- I want everything I eat and drink to be helpful to me somehow, even if that means a cup of coffee that brings two friends closer. I am not saying never to splurge and have treats but limit them to special occasions. I want to get on a schedule for workouts and get the most from each and every workout I have.
Relationships- I don't mean just romantic relationships, I mean romantic (if applicable), friends, family, people at work, strangers in the store, any kind of relationship I could have. Let the people in my life know I love them. Do things for them. Spend time with them. Make more dinner/coffee dates. Be present in my time with them. Know what is going on in their lives. Share in the hard times and the good.
Spending- Money management has always been a struggle for me. This year I want to be intentional in my spending. Set budgets, buy only the things I need, spend on others, spend wisely. I have been doing some reading on different methods on controlling money so hopefully with knowledge I will get a handle on it.
Jobs- I have a job at the Y and will be starting one at the hospital in the next couple of days. I want to feel like what I am doing matters and the best way to do that is to be intentional with my work. Interact with the people I meet. I may not stay in these jobs for the rest of my life but I do think I can make a difference where I am.
Self- talk/Appearance- I am very good at negative self talk and that is not healthy at all, so I am trying to change the voice in my head to be more positive about myself. I would never let a stranger talk to me like I talk to myself, so why should I tolerate it from me? One thing to help with that is to put time into my appearance. There are weeks I am good at just throwing on a t shirt and skirt and not putting any thought into it. I am working on getting a more adult wardrobe so I don't look so young (I had someone tell me today I looked ten years younger than I am! ) I am working on a curated wardrobe that looks more business casual than casual.
Devotions- I get lax on my devotions more times than I care to admit. I am learning that the only way to make it through the good times and the bad is to rely on my faith. My faith will only grow if I keep up with my devotions. I am going to keep up with my group from college and read along with them on their books. I also have a wonderful app called She Reads Truth. I love plans they have and the daily emails and the deep thoughts they put with the Scripture.
Blog- I have let this blog kind of fall by the wayside a few times. I want to be more intentional with this space. I originally started this space to encourage people in all areas of life, and I ended up focusing more on me than I did others, and that is changing! I want to focus on others more, because then I realize my problems aren't all that big!
I hope everyone has a very Happy New Year and as a member tells me every time he sees me Be kind to yourselves!!!!