Dealing with hurt

I have been hurt several times in life just like every one else has.  When I get hurt, I don't deal with it. I just bottle it up and it turns into bitterness and I explode on the people that I love. I also tend to shut people out and turn away from God and my devotions.

 Normally when I get hurt, it's because of s guy.  When it is a guy, I immediately look for a new guy or turn to an ex and try to get things started with them again.

This time I'm hurting I want to deal with it the right way. I am tired of going through this cycle of being hurt more because I didn't deal with the original problem.

So I have been looking up Scriptures to help, and the first one I found is Psalm 27. It talks about how God is my strong tower and how I should wait on Him to fulfill my needs and desires and be patient(which has never been my best quality anyway).

I have also decided that I'm not going to be looking for a new guy.  I am going to wait in God, and if He sends me a guy,  I will be grateful and if not, I will continue to to work on me and getting prepared for when the right one does come along.

                                             Hope everyone has a wonderful Monday!

Picture Creations

So, I have quite a few little ones who are dear to my heart and I love to get pictures of them.  I don't like to lock those pictures away in an album, so I try to pick the best of the pictures and matte them so I can hang them and everyone can see them.  So I came home and put this together as soon as I got here. 

So these are my supplies and my cat being a photo hog.

I didn't get a picture of cutting the pieces out, but after I cut everything out I used modge podge to put everything on the canvas.

It is a bit wrinkly in this picture, but I managed to
smooth most of them out with a ruler.

And the final result.

I was originally going to use two pictures of sweet Alyssa, but I felt it made everything crowded so I found this quote and used it to fill in some space instead. And really, who doesn't love a good quote?  In this picture you can still see some of the Modge Podge, but it dried clear and you can't see it now. 

I really don't know where I am going to put this piece yet, and I might wait until I move to hang it anywhere. Hopefully, I am going to look at a place tomorrow and be moved and settled by November first.

Have a great day!

I Have Somebody With Me

We sang this hymn Sunday at church and it has kinda stuck with me.  I have been going (and honestly still am) through some really hard times lately with the possibility of losing my job through no fault of my own. And I actually woke up with this song on my mind this morning, and it hit me. Through all of my struggles and failures (because I have had a lot of those lately too), God is right beside me, loving me, even when I don't deserve it. I really don't feel like I deserve it right now, because I am trying to take everything into my own hands and fix it. I have been worrying and stressing and then turning to all the wrong sources of stress relief.  Last night, I worried myself until I was nauseous.  This in itself is a failure, because He says to cast your care upon Him.

Now the biggest of my troubles is my job and what would happen if I lost it, but it is not my only trouble.  I should be better off than I am with savings and things, but I have made some bad choices and I am not a money person, and I realize some of it is my fault, but I believe if I am actively trying to fix my mistakes and do better that God will help me.  Since I have had some warning of what might happen, I am looking for another full time job now. I am also looking to take on a part time job to help even if I don't lose my job.

Last night was not a good night, but this morning with that song on my mind I can calm down, look at things objectively and work on solving the problem. And I don't have to do this alone because "I have somebody with me all the way."

I believe

A blog I read on a daily basis listed what she believed in and then asked what you believe in soooo

I believe that I will be a runner one day.

I believe that  I can do anything in life I want to do.

I believe that is important to have good friends who you can count on for anything.

I believe no matter how hard I try, I will not be a morning person.

I believe in God and Jesus.

I believe in cookies for breakfast.

I believe in true love and that I will one day find it.

I believe in baseball.

I believe in music.

I believe in family.

I believe in soft sheets.

I believe in cuddles.

I believe in hope.

I believe in doing your best no matter what.

I believe in continual learning.

I believe in working hard.

I believe in coffee and tea.

Trim Healthy Mama

Left to Right: Kyle (brother), Emily (sis-in-law), Suzanne (momma), me, and Jeff (daddy, who hates his picture being taken)

This is my gorgeous family at Thanksgiving last year. At the beginning of that November I started losing weight.  I was actively trying to, but I didn't share it with anyone.  And then when people started noticing, all the attention was focused on my weight.  I had always considered myself on the smaller side of average, but when I hit a size 16 and almost 200 lbs, I just about broke down.  I started working out almost everyday and eating alot better.  I think alot of it stemmed because I was worried about how certain people thought of me, because when they were in my life, I beat myself up about how big I was and worried every moment what they thought of me, but I was scared to share my feelings with them.  So basically because I wouldn't talk to them they left my life, and I relaxed on myself and let myself enjoy the weight loss and benefits of the weight loss.  I quit trying to actively lose weight in February and settled into my new weight for a little bit.  I have kept it off quite successfully, but the toning that had started is going away.

So, I have decided it's time to start again. In all honesty, I still need to lose about 20-30 more to be in a healthy range that lowers my risk from the hereditary diseases in my family.  My parents have gained weight recently and it is distressing my mom.  Her self-esteem is almost completely gone because of this gain, so she has put my nutrition degree to work and today in my free time at work, I am putting together meal plans and grocery lists.  I don't live my parents anymore, but I promised mom I would do everything with her so she wasn't exactly alone.  The issue is I have to make different, but similar meal plans for mom and dad.  He is diabetic and has to keep his sugar stable, and extremely cutting things could spike it or crash it.

Mom and I have been reading the Trim Healthy Mama book. (if you haven't I totally recommend it!)  Mom had been trying to follow it about 80% and found she was still gaining weight after about 6 weeks, so we are going to do the Fuel Pull Cycle for a couple weeks, while I add some healthy carbs the first few days for Daddy, but not too many mind you.

I love the science and philosophy in THM and could not believe how much sense it made and how I never learned any of this in my Nutrition classes, a full bachelor's degree of classes and not mentioned once!  I was upset that no one bothered to even mention this philosophy. So I am still learning and reading the book and plan but I am convinced if people followed it completely it would at least make them healthier and possible lose weight.

So I am going to get to meal planning, and everyone else have a wonderful day! Enjoy some coffee on this fall day!

Blessed be he that cometh in the name of the Lord: we have blessed you out of the house of the Lord.  --Psalm 118:26

Recipe Update

I was going to take pictures, I really was, but when I went to take the pictures, my batteries were dead and I had no extras. So batteries are on the grocery list this week.

Recipe number 1 (and the most important) : Spinach dip.  It was amazing and I am still eating on the leftovers.  Kaitlyn absolutely loved it, as did another friend that came over Sunday night.  I couldn't find one recipe I liked for spinach dip.  I found several that sounded ok and decided to just mix them.  My recipe came out including:
16 oz sour cream
approx 1 cup mayo
a tub of Parmesan cheese
10 oz frozen spinach
1 can artichoke hearts
1 packet dry leek soup.

I put everything in the crockpot and let it heat and melt together and dipped chips right in.

Kaitlyn and I did a lot of talking so it took us a few minutes to get started, but when we did, it was magic.   I got told I looked like a witch doctor mixing potions.  We made shampoo, conditioner rinse, face scrub, and body scrub.  I wish I could tell you what was in each of them, but I am horrible at measuring and I just pour things together that sound good and keep pouring until it looks right.   I do this with all my cooking too.

Kaitlyn said she absolutely loved it and she was having to hide it from her husband too.  She managed to get a meeting with some people she works with for me to explain why I started making these kinds of things and to try to sell some.  She go the meeting and then she told me about it and surprised me!  But it could work out, I am just nervous.

Later that Day, I did get to see someone very special and I have picture of that so here you go!

Me and Kloe in Dr. McKloe's house

Hope everyone has a wonderful fall-like day!

Where I Belong

So I have had this song on my mind since I first heard it a couple months ago.  It talks about how we don't belong in this world and we need to find our comfort in the fact "I am not home yet."

It's been weighing a lot more heavy the last few days where it pertains to my job.  Some things are happening around here that my job might be cut out and I have been dealing with the fact maybe I don't belong here anymore even if it's not cut out.  I know what I want to do, but I am not sure that I am supposed to be there either. So alot of praying is being done by me,  but for now I know "I have this blessed assurance, that He is holding me."

Enjoy your day!!!

For Such a Time as This

For if thou altogether holdest thy peace at this time, then shall there enlargement and deliverance arise to the Jews from another place; but thou and thy father's house shall be destroyed: and who knoweth whether art come to the kingdom for such a time as this?  Esther 4:14

In this passage, Mordecai was trying to convince Esther to enter the kings house to save the Jews, using the reasoning that Esther was put on this earth right then and there in that place for that exact purpose.

 I was at a leadership conference this weekend and in one of the messages, the speaker said, "If God had wanted you back in the day with the great preachers, like Wigglesworth and Izuzu Street Revival, He would have made sure you would were born back then, but God put you on this earth here and now for such a time as this."

I have been thinking about this statement all weekend, especially as it pertains to some of the things happening in my life right now.  It was confirmation that I am doing the right thing with starting up the group Priceless.  I was here to witness to the lost I know around me, because no one else can do it exactly like I can. I was put here to help encourage the widowed, fatherless, and hurting around me.

God has put everyone on this planet where they are for a purpose.  Our job is to figure out what that purpose is and the follow the leading on how to fulfill that purpose.

We don't need to be wishing we could be somewhere else or in a different time, because you are perfectly timed.

Recipes

My sweet friend and partner in crime, Kaitlyn, is coming to my house Saturday, and we are going to be making a variety of things.  We have decided to make spinach dip to eat on all day, and we will be making face scrub, body scrub, shampoo, a conditioner rinse, and laundry detergent, all without those nasty chemicals no one can pronounce.  I also have to make a dessert tonight for the Leadership meeting starting tomorrow. So today's task is to get my list together, go to the store, spend way too much money, and get ready to have fun!  Pictures and recipes will come later!  Have a Great Day!

Tunesday Tuesday

Music has always been a part of my life one way or another. I have listened to just about every genre. I have noticed lately how different my mood and attitude is with each genre I listen to.

For example, when I listen to rock I am normally angry or get that way very soon. When in listen to rap, I get disgusted with what people call music and the lack of morals of the artists. (I never listen to rap unless it is on in a store I am in and I leave very quickly). This also happens when I listen to pop "music".

When I listen to Christian, whether it be Southern Gospel or praise and worship, I am reminded of God's goodness and grace and His love for me. Here lately I have made a commitment to only listen to Christian music when I control the dial. I realize stores and other people's vehicles I don't have control over.

I like songs that remind me of what being a Christian really means. That is one reason I really like Casting Crowns song -Jesus, Friend of Sinners. Like alot of their songs, it reminds me that even though we are Christians, we are no better than the lost of the world. That Jesus loved them and was their friend and that works so much better than just judging and condemning them. We only "show what we are against, not what we are for, when we judge the wounded."

A Light Hidden

2 Corinthians 4:3   But if our gospel be hid, it is hid to them that are lost.

If you are a Christian, then you are commissioned to carry the Gospel far and wide to everyone you know. It is called a light in Matthew. Light is an guide to them that are in the dark.  When a boat is lost at sea, it is the light from the lighthouse that is their saving grace.  When someone is lost in the woods, they look for a light from a house or building to find refuge.  When a child is scared in the night, they turn on light to make the nightmares go away. Light is a sign of hope. There is a world of hurting people that is looking for a light, for a way that is better than the way they are living.

People looking for a light turn to drugs, alcohol, sex, money and everything else possible in this world. If we, as Christians, don't live a life that shines that light, people continue to turn to things other than Christ to make the darkness in their life go away.

When we hide the Christ has given us, it is not us who suffers. It is the lost hurting people of the world. We are commissioned to help the lost and wounded, the ones suffering in the darkness wandering around in circles. Imagine where you would be if someone did not shine their light for you to follow. You could be the one who turns to addiction of one kind or another to fill the emptiness in your life.


So shine your light and make the world a brighter place.

Introduction

Hi, ​I am not really good at introductions. I do so much better after the introductions are over and we are getting along, but they are necessary, I guess.  Soooo....anyway my name is Kim. I like all things sewing, chocolate, and coffee. I am trying my hardest to follow the Lord and His plan for my life. I am single and no kids. I love crafting and putting things together. I am starting a girls group the first of the year called Priceless for ages 8-13 to be a good role model and to teach them life skills and lessons. I want to start school the fall of next year for Psychology or Social Work (still a little undecided.) I want to use that degree to work in a non profit organization.  I am going to start volunteering with some of organizations soon to get some experience. I just have to call and set things up.   I love doing devotions in the morning or late at night. I usually have music going all the time. I liked running when I was doing it regular and will start again soon so I can enter my first race in October.  This is a life blog to document me living my life to the fullest I can.  I have thought of some features I want to have on here and I will try to do it weekly. I will list them at the bottom of this post what I have worked out so far. I am not perfect, just striving to please a perfect Savior. Hope you enjoy the journey as much as I do!

Monday- Devotional thought
Tuesday- Favorite Song (Tunesday Tuesdays)
Wednesday-Something Crafty
Thursday-No clue yet Maybe something about cooking or that may be linked up with Wednesday crafts.
Friday- Financial Friday